Mumble Herder

This is why I am greatly fond of a couple of ciders when out with coworkers/at parties. It doesn't fix me, but it does shut up the part of my brain that agonizes over stupid things and worries about why my coworkers would want to spend time with me, and why people are talking to me. And once I stop worrying about if people are judging me, I can start having a pretty good time. And I find it also ends up creating positive feedback loops in my head--if I go to a bar and have a little to drink and have a good time, I end up more likely to associate going to a bar with having a good time, and can drink less the next time and still enjoy myself. I think this is one reason why I'm so careful about how much I drink (well, that and the fear of being out of control.)